Miserable
Sep 23, 2009
10:43 PM
Is there sumthin that i shud b worried of?
I was wondering.
Ever since the fight, i felt the emptiness in between us.
Tat fight wasn't juz a normal ones.
I knew that we're both hurt.
Deep inside that the wound will hardly recover.
I didn't know how to describe with words.
I could feel my heart was twisted to dry until the last drop.
I was thinking should we discuss over it.
U keep repeating that it's my prob. It's my character.
U might not know how hurt it would be that the words r coming out from u.
U've over-judged me.
I won't speak if ur temper only stays calm for that few seconds.
I told you tat i'm gonna talk to u when we're juz d both of us.
But u've taken whe wrong path.
U've pass through the border between.
U explode infront of others.
I can say nuthin for that reaction.
I will still choose silence no matter what.
Even for now, i will still take silence as my answer.
I am stubborn. I am.
It's a doubt that i heard that two words from u.
I wonder if i dun turn back, would u?
I'm not sure if my turning is right o wrong.
For the past, i might not be returning anymore.
But i'm not sure if i've made the right decision.
The time when u speaks, i could feel that i've lost my trust, my faith n my love.
I can see no love but anger in ur eyes.
I hated that a lot. lots.
I'm so afraid to tell that i am still so hurt n being disappointed.
I feel unsecure.
Will the cut stays long in us?
I'm doubt.
If i could still build the love once more like before.
These days when i was talking to u,
I still feel tat the situation now is much more different than before.
There is this gate tat i think i will nvr get through.
Things happened. It just happened.
I knew that u won't promise tat u won't repeat.
Even yes, i dun nid that to be promised.
It's not wt i can bear with in the future if it's broke one day.
It was actually juz a small matter that i was jealous of.
I just don't like to knw bout u from anyone else's mouth besides you, urself.
I admit tat i am jealous. Jealous of y u're not telling me.
I know u're angry of me d nite before.
I knew that i was wrong.
I did wanna talk to u to know if u're angry.
I can c tat u're not happy tat nite when i was back.
Tat's y i'm staying by urside.
I didn't know if tat fight is worth.
I've nvr expected tat u're gonna treat me this way.
What happened in the past, is not wt u thought.
U're not me, u can't say wt is wrong n right.
My situation is nt wt u can understand.
He from my past, treating me the same way, tat doesn't meant tat u can judge me tat i am wrong.
I nid not explain much about the past since tat now n tommorrow is wat important now.
The devil took away the trust.
The evil demolished the love tat we, hardly built.
I'm still not tat tough enuf.
I still hear the cry in my innerself.
Can things still turn out like be4?
O it's different for now?
None can answer.
I'm afraid tat i'll still serve you silence. If the way tat we've chosen is still not right.
My man 
Ing 
