Love is a smoke made with fume of sighs.

Miserable

2009-09-23T22:43:00.003+09:00

Is there sumthin that i shud b worried of?
I was wondering.
Ever since the fight, i felt the emptiness in between us.
Tat fight wasn't juz a normal ones.
I knew that we're both hurt.
Deep inside that the wound will hardly recover.
I didn't know how to describe with words.
I could feel my heart was twisted to dry until the last drop.
I was thinking should we discuss over it.
U keep repeating that it's my prob. It's my character.
U might not know how hurt it would be that the words r coming out from u.
U've over-judged me.
I won't speak if ur temper only stays calm for that few seconds.
I told you tat i'm gonna talk to u when we're juz d both of us.
But u've taken whe wrong path.
U've pass through the border between.
U explode infront of others.
I can say nuthin for that reaction.
I will still choose silence no matter what.
Even for now, i will still take silence as my answer.
I am stubborn. I am.
It's a doubt that i heard that two words from u.
I wonder if i dun turn back, would u?
I'm not sure if my turning is right o wrong.
For the past, i might not be returning anymore.
But i'm not sure if i've made the right decision.
The time when u speaks, i could feel that i've lost my trust, my faith n my love.
I can see no love but anger in ur eyes.
I hated that a lot. lots.
I'm so afraid to tell that i am still so hurt n being disappointed.
I feel unsecure.
Will the cut stays long in us?
I'm doubt.
If i could still build the love once more like before.
These days when i was talking to u,
I still feel tat the situation now is much more different than before.
There is this gate tat i think i will nvr get through.
Things happened. It just happened.
I knew that u won't promise tat u won't repeat.
Even yes, i dun nid that to be promised.
It's not wt i can bear with in the future if it's broke one day.

It was actually juz a small matter that i was jealous of.
I just don't like to knw bout u from anyone else's mouth besides you, urself.
I admit tat i am jealous. Jealous of y u're not telling me.
I know u're angry of me d nite before.
I knew that i was wrong.
I did wanna talk to u to know if u're angry.
I can c tat u're not happy tat nite when i was back.
Tat's y i'm staying by urside.
I didn't know if tat fight is worth.
I've nvr expected tat u're gonna treat me this way.

What happened in the past, is not wt u thought.
U're not me, u can't say wt is wrong n right.
My situation is nt wt u can understand.
He from my past, treating me the same way, tat doesn't meant tat u can judge me tat i am wrong.
I nid not explain much about the past since tat now n tommorrow is wat important now.

The devil took away the trust.
The evil demolished the love tat we, hardly built.
I'm still not tat tough enuf.
I still hear the cry in my innerself.

Can things still turn out like be4?
O it's different for now?
None can answer.

I'm afraid tat i'll still serve you silence. If the way tat we've chosen is still not right.

Freezed

2009-09-14T23:23:00.002+09:00

It hits me again.
When the door banged twice.
My heart freeze.
I really freezed.
Where should i run to?
Who should i run to?
Lost in the street.
Rewind.
Harsh.
Words are taking me down.
I guess i should leave.
To no where.
I've done wt i can.

Thanks P for being there.
I knew that u're all the way behind me.
At least i felt the warmth when i'm shivering in the cold.
Thanks a lot.

When people meets people

2009-09-13T18:57:00.002+09:00

Have u ever felt how it is when someone juz told you how much u've been interupting their life?
What does S-O-C-I-A-L defines?
People meeting people.
People talks about stuff to people.
People gossips about people.
People making out with people.
People hang out with people.
People make a deal with people.
There are so much going on out there.
Meeting people isn't just treating them nice.
Meeting people, will have to choose the right way of making the right time with the right conversation.
Did i juz interupt too much? Probably i am.
I shouldn't juz c the bad side of it.
It might be good that i'm staying away from your life.
To make it straight forward, we call it "M.E.A.N"
To make it sounds better, we call it "H.O.N.E.S.T"
We turn up to be strangers.
I've apologize for what i've done that causes u feeling bad.
U're apologized back but asking for me to leave.
Well, u just don't nid me as ur fren.
I hurts me when i've got it from u.
I've been treating u as my pal.
Yet things turn out to be a burden to u.
I am a burden.
That's y u kick my ass out of ur world.
Ignoring me.
People treating people nice is a crime?
Or i just don't deserve to have a friend?
It's not like i'm dumped by any guys.
But it just some how makes me feel sad.
I'm offering any help that i could.
But seems like things doesn't work out that easy.

Things wasn't in hand lately.
My relationship is going from good to bad to high to low....
Life is like a rollercoaster. Yes it is.
I know. We take all these to get us grown up.
I am out of control.
I drived myself to the highway, speedup, and bang!
Who do u think is the one pointing the directions in the game.
When things speedup, it wasn't a good thing.
Like one of my friend said, "Test drive is safe. u won't wanna regret after u bought it, right?"
Yea. The fact is true.
But wt he is pointing is sumthin about 18sx.
U wouldn't know how things work out if u'll never try rite?

A muted heart

2009-09-03T22:59:00.002+09:00

Walking around. Sitting back on the same spot. Turning my heads around.
What is wrong with me?!
I couldn't make my heart stay healthy.
There is sumthin that twisted my heart.
Me myself couldn't figure it out what is wrong with me.
I wanted to shout it out there. Vigorously.
Hoping that it will help me out.
But. Hey. Where am i now? Polices are everywhere. Petrolling with bicycle. I'm like a piece of sh*t right now.
In a sudden i lost myself.
Things aren't running smoothly lately.
Am i just that sad?
I wish i could run to no where.
I nid not talk to any1. Not to bother of what they r thinking. Not to think of the plans tat i should do.
I knew that i shud spend more time on my studies right now.
The paper is coming soon. Before it's too late.
I just didn't have the mood for it.
What is wrong?!!!!!!!!!

Boredom

2009-09-01T23:40:00.002+09:00

I totally hav no idea wt shud i do now. Sitting here in the room. Didn't know whom to talk to. I started to like my life back here to my own place at the start. But sum how, there is a sudden that i feel like i'm annoying to others? I don't join people back in my place here. Neither also the people in my class. Anti-social? mayb that's the problem. I didn't see any1 that i really can talk to as being frens here. It's really hard for me to take things sumtime. I was wondering, y shud i treat them nice since they r not treating me back the same way? "u musn't think like tat. u shud b treating evry1 out there all the same. doesn't matter how they treat u back. as long as u knw what u're doing wasn't harming urself." he said. i understand. sumhow, i still couldn't find a way of solving that mentally. I dun make much new frens here. I don't hang out with any of the people i met here. I am bored with the faces here. I wanted to get new faces. But i'm juz not good in socializing and finding out topic to talk about. Sumhow, i couldn't control wt others r thinking. "She might have sumthin hidden behind that she wanted from me, therefore she is coming closer to me" might b what they thought. Making new frens is harder nowadays. Yet, who will remember me either. I guess i've started to live in the world of my own.

今天

2009-08-26T21:27:00.004+09:00

华人七夕。
情人节快乐。
并没庆祝。
一直很盼望能够和你庆祝那些特别日子。
看见他人那么开心的庆祝他们的日子。
那个女孩不希望能够有着自己的纪念日。
我不需要花很多钱的庆祝。
我不需要名贵的礼物。
但，我却没见到什么表示。
你该是忘了那100天。
提起了今天。
我无话可说。是我盼望得太多吗？失望的是我自己。
你说你很多事情没经历过。
也许吧。我需要的，和你需要的，都不一样。
也许我们选着的方式，都不适合对方。
我不知道你要多就来适应。快半年了。
你还不够吗？
我不知道我能不能够等到你真真的适应的时候。
我终觉得一次比一次得累。
看见你颓废，我很累。
你的烦恼，也成为了我的烦恼。
你可以什么都不做。
但时间在跑。没有人会等你。
我不希望，那天我往前走了，你还在原点。
现在状况我没资格要什么好的，要什么浪漫。
那些也许是我之前都曾经拥有。
也许，这段感情，才是真真得让我看更开吧。
偶尔，我面对你我无法呼吸。
从小就一个人过，我知道你很孤单。
你不喜欢寂寞的感觉。
我会尽量配合你。但我也有很累的时间。
你应该明白，有时候，某的情况会避一个人长大。
“分手吧”是我今天真得有点冲动的想说。
我快人受不了了。
脆弱得你，依靠着我。

但我没人能依靠。

恋爱的感觉，没有了。
也许，习惯是我可以说的吧。
我不知道该怎么做。
哄我的人，也不会是你。
也没遇见过。
忽然觉得，我们都没火花。
是我不懂得被爱吗？
还是不懂得怎么去爱？

It hits us again...

2009-08-11T12:28:00.002+09:00

11th August 2009
Today, earthquake again. Around 5am when we're still on our bed.
Suddenly the bed shakes. I was awake looking at him.
"It will be fine. Don't worry..."
I was quite surprised.
It quite strong this time.
Heard from the news that its magnitude is 6.6 for the one today.
Feel so insecure right now here in Japan.
What to do?!
Pray hard is all what i can say...
Pray for me....

Earthquake

2009-08-10T23:36:00.001+09:00

AAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!
Earthquake!!!
It's yesterday. (9th aug)
Experienced the 1st earthquake in my life.
I was talking with my friends in my boy's room.
Leaning against the bed, i feel like a bit shaky.
I looked at him. He's not shaking.
I looked at the bottle on the floor, the water in it was shaking.
"Earthquake?" i thought and asked.
"Har?! come lets stand still and feel the earthquake in japan" Xiao hei said.
The others blur...
Suddenly we feel it's strange.
Then we quickly ran downstairs.
When i reached the lobby, the officer is laughing and said "oh~ it's only a small case. It's alrite".
I was like "huh~?"
Then we found out only the malaysian's ran out.
It's really a funny scene.
We all laughed tat malaysian so "kia si".
Wuahahahahahahahaha......
But then when we came back to the room, one of our clay bowl fall from the table.
It's broke. Sad to see my bowl....

Cried for a fan

2009-08-02T23:54:00.003+09:00

2nd August 2009

Rainy day

Love today

Met with my dad's friend, Mr Fujita.

He's really a lovely old man.

He buy me lunch and brought me my stuff from my mum.

I really enjoy my time chit-chatting with him whenever i see him.

About a month ago, i met with him n his wife.

His wife was treating me very nice.

Tempura don.

Having tea time at the coffee shop.

Gave me a big bag of mixed noodles.

It's surprising that his wife gave me a small pressie.

It's so sweet of them...

Went to meet up 小屁。

Bought our groceries.

He made a shoe rack for us.

Made sumthin new for our fridge.

Cooked Bak kut teh.

Taken our dinner.

I was sent home.

Taken my shower,

Talking to my friend,

Suddenly the phone rang....

He told me to meet him downstairs.

I was suspecting.

But i knew that he nvr lied.

So me n my fren went down.

When my friend opened the door.

She shut it back n keep saying "OMG..! OMG..!"

I was scared?! At 1st i tot was he caught by the police? Coz he doesn't hav his ID card with him.

Then my fren opened up the door again n bring in a big box.

It's a fan...?

I was so surprised!!!!

My fren keep saying "OMG..!". "It's so sweet"

HAHAHAHAHHAHA

I told my fren that i always wanted to buy a fan.

Then suddenly he com out with a fan infront of the door.

I was so surpised.... by a FAN...??

A fan?

I couldn't even believe it myself.

My eyes was burst in to tears when i saw it.

Cz i've been mentioning to him tat i wanted to hv it bt then i keep forgetting.

Until 2nite on the way he sent me back,

i mentioned about the weather tat it's so nice to sleep coz it's raining.

Then suddenly we hav a topic about the fan.

"I buy u a fan loh...."

"Dun wan. Y suddenly buy fan for me? later my frens ask, wt did ur BF gave u? Then i answer them a stand fan?"

"Of course la... If not give u a rose ah? Fan is better. More realistic. Buy rose got use meh? Buy rose u'll be happy then make it into air bandung ah? Giv u fan atleast u can still use it. More 实用."

"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA"

"True ma... If u need money, but i give u bread, u think it's useful to u?"

"Yea loh hoh..."

It's really surprising me...

Not only because of tat fan, bt then he is really giving me wt i wan now.

I really dunno how to express myself in words.

U've make the 1st step.

加油吧。。。

Back

2009-07-11T11:01:00.003+09:00

Life here is really hectic.
Running out of time.
Less than 4 months to go.
Pray hard for me that i can make it through.

Speechless.
Being a fool all these while.
Fooling around without knowing wt exactly that i am searching for.
The hope n trust that i used to have, it seems like i let it slipped away.
I'm running on the pace, trying to reach it...
I somehow couldn't even manage to touch it.
I wanted it badly.
I wanted that kind of warmth n care in me for so so long.
I'm craving hard for it.
I guess, i'll hav to make the way on my own.

I thought that i'm healed.
Sumhow i'm not.
I'm severely injured.
The feeling of the cuts that i grip with my soul.
I'm sorry.
Sorry that i've made it over react for u.
U might b pissed off with me.

U're d one standing on the spot.
U're upset that i moved.
I once told u tat i'm used to b left on the spot that u're standing.
I know how it feels.
I faced this times n times much more suffering that wt u r feeling.
I'm trying to help u out.
U're not moving.
It's nt wt i've been through that makes us now.
It's how we're choosing the right way to make things work out.

I doesn't want u to put ur attention on us.
It's nt the right time.
I've got my way to make myself feel better.
I really wanted u to make a success in ur life.
I hoped so much tat u can really put all ur effort in ur studies.
It really meant lots.
To u n also ur family.

I can wait...
To be right there.
I know tat u can make it through, rite?
There r lots of problems stacking up in u.
I really wanted to take it down for u.
But sumhow i feel bad tat i couldn't even lend a hand for u.
It's really out of my boundaries.

Pray hard tat tomorrow will b a better day.

Here.. Japan...

2009-05-07T22:24:00.003+09:00

Easy job.
How convenient it is.
Having the kids in the trolley.
Baby-sitters got their on way.

School reopens!
We get to see all the parents were taking pictures for their child.
It's a very touching moments.
Parents were actually building the memories for their children.
It's so wonderful to see the families around taking down the unforgettable moments.
How i wish i would hav a child to take a picture too!

The families are taking turns to take picture in front of the school gates with banner and sakura all around. How perfect it is...

Sakura. I get to see all the way long from my house to the school.
It's only a 10mins walk.
This is one of the building tat i'm going to pass by everyday to school.

Wind blows. As it landed on my skin.
I feel it. Soft... comfortable... smoothly running on the skin...
It's the petal.
Sakura.

Enjoying our moments at one of the garden.
A big ones, with sakura all way LONG~~~~~
Enjoyable moments!!

我的男人

2009-05-03T23:23:00.009+09:00

U n I
Now living only in our own space.
Doesn't bother the world outside.
"U're the only 1 i have here now. If u dun care for me, no 1 would."
It's really a very familiar phrase.
It's ur quote.
Making me smile whenever i heard of it.

"Gurl,how are u 2day?"
It's what i always heard be4 this.
I get to hear it from u almost everyday...

He loves.
Photography.Daydreaming.Bed.Boxers.Eating.Smiling.YouTube.Teasing.
Nonsense.Blogging.Old school.Fred Perry.早安，晨之美by卢广仲.He enjoy doing laundry. For me 2.
Love him more!This is My Man.
Giving me the most "sunshine" smile that he had.
Loves his smile... LOTS~!Lastly, Myself.
Long time tat i did not show up.
Well, putting on more weight.
Dun feel like exposing~ :P LOL~

Who cares?!

2009-04-29T22:31:00.002+09:00

Dun giv a damn if u dun wanna bother!
I nid not ur meaningless apologize!
I juz dun like it!
U juz dun know it!
I hate ppl talking tat way to me!
I juz nid sumthin to talk about!
It's nt tat i wanna pick a fight!
I juz dun get it what is it in ur mind!
I am so full of "!!!!!!!!!" right now!
Even u know it, u dun even bother!
Show me sum more of this!
U'll get things wrong!
SO wrong!

...Sad weekend...

2009-04-26T16:57:00.003+09:00

It have been quite a whole i did not update myself here.
It's almost a month I'm here in Tokyo.
A place where i did not expected that i will come.
Things r all like a miracle happening here.
Even now i still dun believe that i'm breathing the air here...
It's really freezing when i juz arrived.
I'm so excited to c sakura when i just get into the bus from the airport.
It's really everywhere.
U can c it everywhere.
The distance from my place to the school, i get to c sakura.
There r no leaves on it.
We're lucky enuf that d sakura bloomed when we reached.
I couldn't think of any word to describe.
There is a row of sakura infront of my school.
The wind blows of the flowers,
Petals r making itself free flying in the air.
It landed on my skin.
Feeling like my heart was coated with d petals.
It's really a very wonderful moment that i did not expected.
Now i do understand y do ppl wanted to c sakura.
It's an unforgettable moment.
Life here is really hectic.
I was just about to make things settled.
Lotsa application to do.
The pace here is really fast than what i've experienced in M'sia.
1 chapter each day.
Everyday sitting for papers.
Pages of homework to b done.
It's really hectic here.
Weekend will always b our best friend!

Now sitting here blogging, it's what i missed the most.
Unfortunately,
I sprain my ankle!!I have to give up my weekend.
Was actually planning to go shopping.
BUT NOW!!!
Sitting at home.
Waiting for Bee to feed...

"Menu please..."

2009-04-19T23:20:00.003+09:00

爱情，有菜单的吗？
Set A, Set B, Set C...?
每一个，都有自己的独特。
是否点了，就是自己喜欢的吗？
到底哪一种才会适合我呢？
还是我该说，哪一个才适合我们呢？

眼泪都会不知不觉地流下。
你我，都有同样的感觉。

一个人走回家的路，真得真得很长。
好几次，一个人走回时，终会有期待。
听到的脚步声在跑着来，
抬头一看，只是在跑步的路人。
我都很希望那脚步声是你的。
是你，走来拉着我。
但，原来是我想太多了。
以为是电视剧吗？

刚刚坐在公园里，
一路走去，在想着，我的未来会是如何？
我现在选着的，会让我未来后悔吗？
我能够在这课生存多久？
后悔了，我还能转换吗？
我该从新考录过念别科吗？
好烦。。。
忽然很想见你，
看见了，眼泪就流了。
我好想你。

好忧郁。
是时间错了吗？
还是我们错了？
我们适合吗？
我真的知道你要的是什么吗？
你知道我要的是什么吗？
我好累，好累。。。
你听见我的欢呼了吗？
我一直都在。
我没离开过。
我还在原地。
等待着你带我体验我从来都没尝试过的事。
我好久没被你拉着去流浪了。
别在窝在那里了。
以前的你，跑到哪里了？
我感觉不到以前那动听的风铃在我耳边响。
让我充满了期待你，
在哪里？

你我的不安

2009-04-17T07:49:00.003+09:00

很多事情都发生了好突然。该说我们太急了吗？对彼此的了解还不够？还是我们都不能够接受彼此的缺点？我不知道。有些事，我都不知道该从哪里说起。有时候，都不想要去在意，把它给忘了。你都希望走进我的心，我的世界，但我还是觉得你没让我走进你的世界。是你不喜欢和别人分享你的思想得你，而让我觉得，我该努力去争取吗？我不介意做那主动的。能够为你做的事，我都会努力的把它做好给你。可是，我还会觉得，不管我努力，我还是站在原地。是我一开始就对你有特别的好感，而让我什么都会比你主动吗？也许，你是有你的想法，而让你会有自私的时候吧？我很多事情都会隔着，会怕你不喜欢。一直到现在，我都无法明白。我不想太依赖你。我也有同样的感觉。快乐好像随时都会消失。你很依赖我吗？我感觉不到。我好像只是在配合你。我不开心的时候，“对不起”总是会去现。我要的，不只是对不起。为什么不可在对不起之前，考录了才做呢？总要等到事情发生了才晚会吗？你我都需要些自己的时间。我不希望会回到过去。不想彼此都无法呼吸。到时候太晚了。。。

When the journey starts...

2009-04-01T15:37:00.002+09:00

Sitting here, a familiar place.
Waiting for the time to past.
I've always wanted to fly out from this mini world of mine, to see how wonderful is the world out there.
It's 1st April 2009.
I took the morning flight at 11.25am MAS wing to MH2591 to KL.
Sitting alone looking out at the window.
Time passes fast indeed.
I've started the journey which i wasn't really prepared for it.
Only mum sent me today.
Surprisingly, my mum was so calm.
I'm happy tat she could just send me as usual.
I wanted to give her a hug, but... I'm just not brave enough.
I'm afraid i'm going to burst in tears.
I knew i'm going to miss her very much,
Even now....
I'm more depressed when i saw my grandma.
When i was back in this trip, she was more ill than before.
My heart was aching when i saw her.
I miss my grandma.
I knew that she's getting old.
I couldn't bear with it when i saw her reactions.
My mum told me this was how her grandmother reacts too.
I really want her back... so much...
I didn't know when can i c her again.
I'm afraid she's going to leave us any soon.
I just can't take it...
I miss u, grandma...

D journey is going to start soon.
I'm going to begin a new life there.
I wanted to hold on ur hand and bring me to the other side of this beautiful world.
I knew that it's going to be amazing when we're walking on... looking at the shadows of us ahead...
It's just simple and unforgettable.
Even now, I could still feel how pleasant we are with our night walk out there.
No matter where we're going, u'll hold me tight by ur side, tickling, teasing, pampering....
Wt means the most to me,
It's a hug from u could just tell evrything.
I'm so thankful to have u by my side.
If i am allowed, I hope that we can get to know each other earlier.
But i wouldn't regret it now, at least, we're in the same world now.

Thanks Jiun for being there for me all these while.
I really don't know how to show my appreciation.
But i'm really glad to hav a friend like u.
We've shared tears n joy...
No matter what it would b now of in the future,
I'll b standing by ur side...
Believe in urself...
Take care my good old friend...
*huggies*

Take care for all of u out there....

我不开心

2009-03-18T18:27:00.002+09:00

What's in us that makes us both feel so irresistible to be together.
I had a bad dream.
It's actually bothering me that I'm being too mature for u.
I couldn't read what is in ur mind.
I hope i can understand more.
I'm trying to keep things smooth.
I try not to listen, not to bother.
Just trying to make things work out.
Being someone better.
I'm upset...

迷宫

2009-03-08T14:29:00.002+09:00

看著你看窗外悄悄變紅的夜
輕輕的你的手又握緊了一些
該不該讓你到我的世界

let's start from here
無所謂慢慢來迷宮一樣的未來
轉一個圈會到哪裡
我喜歡愛情有點神秘
I don't care where we go
let's start from here

陪著我喝咖啡愛在空氣裡
暖暖的是你的笑趕走心情的灰
我想我不在意你曾愛過誰

Let's start from here
無所謂就算愛像空沙發在等待
擁抱著是不確定
我喜歡愛情多點驚喜
I don't care where we go
let's start from here

愛一個人怎麼開始阿
像街上走過那些人們
轉一個彎預見美好

Staying up

2009-03-04T01:18:00.002+09:00

I couldn't sleep at this moment.
I've taken a long nap in the evening.
In a sudden, there is sumthin bothering me.
I hardly can describe.
I guess i shud juz keep things like how it is now.
Atleast it's comfortable for us now.
I like it to be like how it is.
Things better not change.
I juz need warmth...
A lot...
Monday blue...

Imperfection

2009-02-22T23:28:00.004+09:00

Imperfection.
"I've filled all the imperfection in you, therefore, you doesn't need to turn into another person..."
How true is this...
Heard it from a song which I've always been looking for.
But till now, i've only got the chorus part.
No one is perfect in this world.
Imperfection is what best described.
We realize the weaknesses of a person when we're getting to know them more.
Somehow, it's not everyone who can accept the weaknesses that they found.
It ended up where the other half leaving the other ones.
Lovers, friends, family, colleague, employees and so on...
I tend to have this kinda feelings lately.
I dun like it.
I guess i found out too much weakness of people who are close to me.
Certain ppl, they just like to criticize or make fun of others to satisfy themselves.
In certain way, we can accept it, but in certain way we can't.
Problem occurs when they doesn't know the bottom line.
But do they even bother about one's bottom line?
Honestly, I was unhappy with certain stuff sometimes.
It's really irritating when it comes into my ear.
I'm trying to make myself deaf sometimes.
Guess what?! Am having a very useful lesson how on "How to build a wall to defend myself from insults"
Action, shows feelings.
Words, shows thoughts.
Even no matter how much u're hiding from ur words, ur action shows.
Even ur action doesn't shows, ur words do mean it.
I guess i've smell sumthin fishy going on lately.
Well, certain ppl choose to ignore.
But, from my observation....
I've got sum conclusion of my own.
In certain times, i was stabbed and being shot in a sudden...
I just couldn't understand the joke.
Well, i guess to satisfy another person's need, therefore someone have to be sacrificed?
I think so.
That's the best solution that i can look for to make my heart stop bleeding.
Am i just tat worse?
May be sometimes in certain way. I guess.
But I'm treating u nice, if you're making me feel comfortable with.
Anyway, I'll just have to say, certain people are just too childish.
Imperfection is what we have to learn nowadays.
What can i say more?
See with your eyes,
Feel with your heart,
Think wisely,
Make the right choice.
In certain situation, I have no choice.
But just to be calm.
Making myself to tolerate.
:)

21 Saturday 09

2009-02-21T23:44:00.003+09:00

昨天，回家的时候，下起雨来，
之前，我好爱雨天。
会觉得，雨天会带来点酸酸甜甜的感觉。
刚刚回来的时候，雨滴落在我手里，望着天空，忽然好希望在这时刻下场大雨，好让我清醒。
心情好沉重。
有好多复杂和莫名的感觉。
体力上好累，精神上的疲倦，心灵上的悲伤，
是否那里可以遇见对的人。
谁人是用真心来对你。
是否说出口，那些都可以信任吗。
如果比上了眼睛，是否我就可以把心让你保管吗。
要遇见能够说真心话得人，
她（他）也是会用一样的心来对我吗。
伤还我的话，我听了好多。
是否是真心话。
我不想去分解。
偶尔，是个玩笑，偶尔，是刺伤人的话。
话中有话，可是最难分解的。
只是想找个人聊聊，
却没人我想分享的。
分享了，未必是能够了解的。
要不就说，你那么，你这样，
听了，我好累。难道我自己不知道我再做什么吗。
我，就是非常的情绪化。
我，是不会被看在眼里的人。
我，是不起眼地。
我，不符合我的年龄。
我，不是你们所能够玩得起的人。
我，是歌会介意他人的眼光。
但，我也只能说，批评我的也好不到哪里去。
冷静了。。。
也觉得，舒服点。。。
好了，累了。。
晚安。。。

第二天

2009-02-21T10:28:00.002+09:00

雨季。。。过了，看来我也好久没来报到。
新年也过了。
我只有九天的假期。
来回，都吃了我两天。
但，回到了美里，却没什么含朋友们联络。
见了几位我常见的。
我大概也在他身上花了不少时间吧。
在我回去之前，我已知道我的感觉已慢慢的减少了。。
我其实是想要在这次回去的时候，就把他说清楚。
但，每当我看见他的时候，我都说不去口。
至到我们的最后一晚，我试着暗示他，
眼泪就慢慢得流。。。
我看见了。。。
心里觉得我改在给我们多点时间。
这一次回去，他的确有打动了我。
但我真得好矛盾，毕竟我还是觉得，我们有太多事情让我无法接受我们会有未来的进展。
好多事情，我其实都很在意。
我也是个女人，也许，我能够很直接的说，我不能包容着一切，
我明白感情的问题是不应该衡量的。
但，我看见你的付出，并不是我想象中的那样。
刚回来的时候，我还是有点不舍得。
但我知道，时间会让一切淡忘。
果然，这几天我都在忙着考试，也开始又回到这里的生活。
这几天也在矛盾着该如何开口呢？
我该这个时候说吗？
结果，我也选着了。
昨天一起来，我就收到了他的简讯。
回了他，也直接的说。
我感觉到他很气。
我忽然感到很内疚，
我不想让他伤心。
我其实也感觉到疲倦了。
我想，让一切结束。。。
去了日本，再重新开始吧。。
加油！

Update 2009

2009-01-18T20:32:00.006+09:00

"Mo-mo" hehe...
Means Heavy!
WUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

By Shiori
It's really an unforgettable night.
Just finished a big bowl of Curry Noodle!
Suddenly came a Strawberry Shortcake.
We really couldn't help it.
We finished up the whole in the middle of the night.
It's really satisfiying but FATTENING!!!!
Now i turn more round!

Dinner in T.G.I Friday's
(Miss the foods so so so much!!!)

Jack Daniel's Chicken and Prawn *Yummy*

Cajun Chicken Salad!
(Lurve the Rommaine so much!)

3 for All

Mirror Chocolate 4 Shiori

Opera Cake 4 myself *muahz*

Dan Dan Noodle in Little Taiwan

Spicy Ramen

Just Lurve Posing...

Tea-time posing

Enjoying my Opera

On d Red Carpet?

Always my Best Companion... McD

Midvalley Trip

Lately...17 Jan 09

2009-01-17T01:42:00.005+09:00

Late post.
It's a lonely Christmas.
Went to Pavilion for a walk.
Went home.
Met Kane.
Went for dinner.
He bought me the chicken rice balls!
Yummy!!!
Thanks a LOT LOT LOT pal...
So sorry tat i can't spend sum time with u last few days...
I know u wun b mad.. hehe..
Miss my Patrick for the Christmas...

Went for a haircut last 2 week.
FRINGE AGAIN!
Feel like crying when I've got this hair.
It's so NOT me!
Help!!!
I wan my hair back!

Went back last 2 week for cousin's wedding.
It's was really traditional.
Exhausted however fun n interesting.
It have been a long time i didn't get to meet my relatives.
Having lotsa fun with em~

Melaka Trip

2009-01-17T00:51:00.003+09:00

04 Dec 2008, Wed

2008-12-04T11:18:00.007+09:00

Yesterday was my 1st day back to KL.
Taken my flight at 10.05am.
It's d 1st time i saw a lot of Indians in Miri.
I guess they are from Brunei.
I really feel hard to leave since few days back.
It's a full flight.
Lots of family and students traveling.
I hardly get a seat at the window.
Listening to the songs, I really feel like crying.
Somehow, I manage to cope with the feelings.
But still feel emotional.
Arrived at the LCCT around 12.15pm.
I'm starving.
Grab the taxi ticket.(RM61.40)
Went off.
Arrived Jalan Sultan at 2pm.
The lady(Cindy) from my school bringing me to my hostel.
It's a 12 minutes walk.
But for me, it's too far!
She is small size so she can't help me with my bags.
It's 14+kg with a back pack n my laptop.
I've to walk up the hill!
It's really making me sweat a lot!
When i get into my room, i'm really shocked!
There is a bed in the living room!
another 2 bed inside another room.
It's really a bad feng shui when i saw it.
The bed in the living roomw as actually facing the main door.
One of the bed in the room is facing the toilet door.
I'm lucky that i can have the other bed which is facing the wardrobe.
What is making me sad is tat there is NO CONNECTION!
I feel like crying when i found out tat there isn't any connection.
I get to look around... n found out tat there is a small fridge outside at the lobby.
There is 13 rooms in that floor, 1 room can fit from 2 to 3 person.
I juz couldn't imagine hw to survive with that small fridge like tat.
I found this very interesting notice this morning when i cam out,
It's from a girl who is leaving at the same floor.
She was quite mad that she store her milk in the fridge.
Someone stolen her milk for 3 times!
It really makes me doubt whether should i put my stuff in there?
I can only do my laundry at the 4th n 5th floor n small cooking there as well.
From my place to d school it's a 12 mins walk.
It's kinda dangerous for me to get outside there during night time.
I'm kinda sad tat i've got to grab my food be4 6 o 7pm.
It's sad tat i've got to walk there alone!
Had a great chat with Ing last nite.
Really thanks her a lot for accompanying me the whole nite.
It's really make me feel lot better.
I've just got my connection this afternoon.
Brought the wireless modem!
HOORRAY!!!
Just too excited for it.
Now sitting in "sweet chat" having ginger egg custard.
I guess ginger is good for me now.
Wondering wt time shud i get back home.
I just dun feel like going home.
When i was thinking tat i hav to walk tat far,
it's tiring.
In times square now.
Saw a very huge christmas tree.
I saw it last year, then this year i'm seeing it alone.
I've actually taken pics with the tree last year.
This year too!

My place
*I've moved the bed.

Early morning sitting in Starbucks just to have the connection!
The Christmas feel is killing me!

It's really a bad day.
I've been waiting for so long for the bus.
Got 1, but then...
I doesn't know which station should i get down.
I ended up in Pandan Indah! I'm gonna reach Cheras!
I was told to get down n grab a cab back to my place.
But i insist to grab bus!
So i went to the bus stop opposite the station tat i just cam down,
I took another bus.
Atlast i've reached Pudu.
There is where i shud actually get down!
Huh... turn 1 big round for the whole day!

The best piece ever...

2008-12-02T22:52:00.003+09:00

Listening to it, my tears r running down.
I did not expect that i'll get this from u.
It's only a guitar melody but it's full with memories.
I could feel it.
U're loosing the tempo slowly, like how u're loosing to control urself...
Tears dropped slowly on the strings,
U are becoming more emotional.
It's our last date today.
It's really a great day.
QUACK...

Life for rent

2008-12-01T21:43:00.002+09:00

Thank you.
For you.
We knew it wouldn't last long.
As long as we're happy.
I've always cherish all d moments that we're together.
I'll keep all these memories deep inside my heart.
It's going to be a part of the wonderful moments that i have ever had.
The bond in between us, it's like a miracle.
The way u read me, it's really unexpected.
Every glimpse, you're going to get my steps.
Unfortunately,
the time doesn't allow us to get further.
I believe that God had actually given us the best thing that he could do.
It might be too late for us that we've only got such a short time together.
But, atleast we've met.
The memories that belongs to us, it will always be there.
U n I will meet someone in the future.
It's making me feel harder to leave.
Missing u, is really killing me.

2008-11-06T21:17:00.002+09:00

徘了徊了走了错了过了等了
累了全都困了烦的乱的等的
都是真的
疯的想的念的不安的焦虑的
复杂的梦过的拥有的失去的
怎么忘呢
你做过的伤放困了你爱的音
那天的我等着你等成了摆设
我的你的他的好的坏的难的
灰的蓝的黄的酸的甜的苦的
都还记得
非常想要忘的绝对不能忘的
我心要换你的真的不行那么
只得放了
环岛的火车载着我第几天了
忽然发现这一刻我不想你了
我的快乐会回来的
只要清楚曾爱得那么深刻
不准问值不值得
我的快乐会回来的
离开不是谁给了谁的选择
疯的想的念的不安的焦虑的

复杂的梦过的拥有的失去的

怎么忘呢
非常想要忘的绝对不能忘的
我心要换你的真的不行那么
只得放了

Simple.Comfortable.

2008-11-05T10:14:00.002+09:00

Simple.
Comfortable.
Steps by steps I'm taking...
It wouldn't last long...
No longer I can hold on.
Trying hard not to keep it so deep...
Inner-self betrayed.
I lost the courage to find the truth.
I'm wrong.
It'll all come back to the life that i wanted.
Soon...

It's tiring for me lately.
Listening to my boss.
Listening to my dad.
Standing on the fence.
I wanted to stay longer.
I enjoy my work.
I feel hard to leave.
Counting on the days.
I no longer going to be here.
I still have no idea what's going to be like when i get to the other part of the earth.
How my life would be without anyone that i could trust.
Can i survive?
Will i survive?

有时候。。。

2008-10-20T21:30:00.002+09:00

偶尔保留些空间也许是好的。
在避免的，我都知道。
你也许像是没事。
但我都知道。
该不该追问事实？
。。。
也许，当我们都知道真相的时候，你我都不会再像以前那么好了。
好多次，我都很想问。
但我不敢。可能，是怕知道了真相，我们的场合会变得尴尬。
他人也许会在猜。
但我知道我再做什么。
其实，我都知道。
有些事，宁可都不去理，不去管，也许，会好过一点吧。

Nice movie...

2008-08-30T21:22:00.002+09:00

Today, went out for lunch with a group of friends.
At a korean restaurant opposite to Chung Hua.
It's new.
For me, it's not very good, but not really bad.

We went to Parkson.
Me n chia yee went for a movie.
Money Not Enough 2
It's actually really worth to watch.
Honestly,
I cried.
I just couldn't control my tears from running out.
It was the first movie that i watched which make me really cried out.
At the beginning, i was a lil bit bored.
I thought it was not like what i expected.
But when it comes to the story of the mother,
it's really touching.
It's about a mother's love.
I highly recommended to my mum.
She was excited to watch it too!

When i drove back,
It was raining.
Whenever this day comes,
Raining, sitting in the car, listening to "the song",
I hardly pull myself out of the familiar scene of the past,
The only difference was, I am the drive now.
I suddenly have you pop into my mind.
I actually do enjoy driving in the rain.
But, the rain is getting heavy.
I've had to rush home.
I'm afraid i can't look clearly the road in front.
I do really hope that the rain would only be that light.
Let me enjoy my drive in the night, with the familiar rain, familiar song, the most familiar situation.
When it all comes at once,
it's really undeniable that it's our night.

只是路人一个。。。

2008-08-29T20:01:00.010+09:00

“我是否只是个路人？”
只有经过，才会被想起吗？
没人可找，没人可陪，
别忘了，你不是最可怜的那个。

To share...

2008-08-20T23:04:00.002+09:00

To share...
There are a few movie that i found who also did almost the same thing.
It's actually about shoes for the femmes.
One example, A girl was tired walking with her shoes, or mayb the shoes is actually making her feet uncomfortable.
He will let her sit a side and rest.
While she rest, he will go grab a new pair of shoes which is much more comfortable,matching to her dress and of course knowing her size.
Tat's sweet, when she doesn't know that he was away to get her a comfort shoe.

Second story.
A girl didn't know what shoe to wear for her dinner.
A guy bought her a few kinds of shoes for her to choose.
But now knowing her size, he bought along all sizes for her to try on.
Tat's good that he've made you more choice to choose.

Third story.
When her feet was sore,
He will help her take off her shoes,
Helping her to massage her feet.

There was this incident i show from the show.
One girl was asked to step on a guy's feet pretending they are lovers, and dance around.
She took of her shoes and stand on the guy's feet.
When she wanted to put on her shoes,
the guy kneel down.
He took her shoes, and help her to put on one by one.
Tat's sweet too.
Or i shud say gentlemen enuf.
But dunno whether he did tat infront for the show only, o he is really a gentlemen?
hehe...

So, these are the "feet" stories.
Quite similar.
But as long as they did it with sincere,
and of course don't let us feel it's done in purpose.
Jiun,u get it rite? like hw we always discuss.
Sumtimes when things let us feel it's done purposely it's nt the rite feel
Like the open car door thing. haha...

I'm in love!!!

2008-08-20T11:30:00.003+09:00

I am in L-O-V-E!!
I found out this restaurant.
I'd hope to fly there for it!
It's like a dream in there.
The ambience is just nice for couples.
www.cafecafekl.com
I love you.

Sweet

2008-08-19T13:57:00.002+09:00

I've just heard of a story.
It's so sweet.
A girl and a guy came out for a date.
She was wearing a white evening dress.
They were sitting in the restaurant having their meals.
Suddenly the girl could feel that her period is coming.
Oh, no~ She could feel that it was leaking a few drops on her dress.
She went to the toilet immediately.
After a few minutes, she went back to her seat.
The guy stood up and said "Excuse me for a moment, I need to get out there to grab some stuff."
Then the guy went out of the restaurant.
She feels so embarrassed and thought tat he might have found out.
After 20 minutes, she is done with her meal.
She thought that their date was over.
Suddenly the guy appeared.
He handed her a bag.
She went to the toilet and opened it up.
She was so touched to see it.
There is a new panty, "safety" shorts, sanitary pads with all sorts of brands that he doesn't know which brand that she actually use.
Isn't it sweet.
It's only for the first date.

It's all rite

2008-08-17T23:43:00.003+09:00

一时的失败并不代表一世的失败。
虽然输了，
但我们还是会为你而感到光荣的。
加油！

Malaysia Boleh~!

2008-08-16T12:32:00.001+09:00

Cheers for Lee Chong Wei!!
Finals coming soon!!
GO GO GO!

15 Aug 08

2008-08-15T23:09:00.002+09:00

I tot i'm gonna b sad actually,
I'll find it infuriating for the past,
But now, it seems different.
I guess the feelings tends to dwindle,
Should i b happy?
I admitted tat i'm superficial for the past but for now i am still!

I finally can understand

2008-07-13T20:09:00.002+09:00

Now i can understand how it feels
It reallly needs a lot of courage to accept everything
I admitted that I was shocked to know that
I'm really disappointed and really hurt to know that
I guess, it's really a good reason to make me loose all those trust in you
It's a good reason to make me clear everything off
Making things work backwards
I guess it's time for a full-stop.
I need not a friend indeed.
Can i take back our promise?
I hope we'll just walk our own path
Leaving everything as a history
I don't want to pull it back anymore
I don't want to listen anymore from you
I'm tired, you are too
I should accept the fact that there will be nothing be done
I'm not the 1 anymore
And you are not the 1 anymore...

You are welcome...

2008-07-13T19:54:00.002+09:00

I need someone new
I need someone to take over that place
I need someone who can just listen
I need someone who can lead me
I need someone who can care for me
I need someone who can be there when I just need
I need someone whom I can cry on
I need someone who can read my mind
I need someone whom I can give all my trust
I need someone who know my needs
I need someone who is not you
I need someone who is better than you
But...
I can't think of anyone who will think of me for first in their mind
I can't think of anyone who will borrow me what i always need
I can't be that selfish anymore
I can't be always that special to you anymore
I can't be as tough as I thought
I can't be as calm as I hope i could
If...
I can just leave you the way you wanted it to be
I can find where my heart actually stays
I can find someone new to take over you

I don't need you anymore
I'll find someone new to listen to me
I'll find someone new to be there
I will... I know I will...
But not that soon...
I'll get someone to be there...

ANYONE out there...
You are welcome...
Take me there...
To your place...
To search for the comfort and warmth...
I'm really dying for it...
Please...

关心-信任-自由

2008-06-28T22:58:00.002+09:00

冷静了以后才发现原来那是我们最清醒的时候
愤怒时，我们都无法理解对方的心清，只顾着自己的感受，
“为什么你总是要找事情来吵呢？”
你我也说过这句话。
对你而言我说的事情都是小事，不必要那么紧张，
但是，你却没想过，你提的事情对我来说并不是小问题吗？
其实，有的事情不是说大小的关系，而是你有注重过它吗？
我要的是关心。
但，就是有的人很奇怪，虽然是关心，可是你的语气就不能够好听一点吗？
不过，你就是不懂得分别关心和控制。
我要的是自由。
在自由里，信任是很重要。
也许，我们是失去了信任才成为了我们吵架，
空间未必不是一个好办法。
你我有了空间，就会让想念来到我们的脑海里，
那种感觉，我好像失去了。

to be continue....

Ages ago...

2008-06-19T19:59:00.002+09:00

half a year

2008-06-18T22:53:00.003+09:00

3 times in 3 months being rushed to the hospital.

No medicine but only injection will cure.

Advices : Consultation for ultrasound scanning.

Result : Operation needed.

Operation : 1 hour to 2 hours.

Causes : Endometriosis

Recovering period : 2-3 weeks

An injection per month for 4 months.

Medication to control.

Reduces pain in future.

It's for the 1st stage.

10mm on both left and right and 15mm in the middle.

Foods controlled.

Movements controlled.

Future controlled?

There are always question for that.

Currently, recovering.

Watched something interesting today.

A movie about dance fusion.

Mixing salsa, ballroom dance, etc..., with hip-hop beat.

Interesting?

Yes, it is.

For certain people changes are needed.

For certain people they can't accept the changes.

I changed because i know that it's time for me to change.

The change in me makes you uncomfortable.

But before i change, you're uncomfortable as well.

Why not taking you seating on my place and look at the stage that i am standing.

You will know why did i change.

I understand why is there no changes in you.

It's because you don't want things to be changed.

But time won't be waiting for you any longer.

You've always said that you understand and you know how to handle it.

But actually, you're still hiding from it but not facing it.

I am always the one who can only turn everything off.

I guess, that's is the only thing i've never changed before.

But why do u take it when you needed me to hang up before u?

It's mean to have the F word.

But i'll take it.

There is no other thing that i can't accept since i've been through so much.

I guess, it's bringing you and me to a further stage.

I will be going far away, you will be standing right there.

Wish you all the best.

Salut...

D art way...

2008-05-30T01:14:00.005+09:00

Photographer - Jiun

Editor - Moi

Theme - Lover's affair; lover's watch

Photographer : Jiun

Editor : Moi

Theme: Story of an unforgivable woman

WUahahahaha.. with d themes, i guess it wun looks ???.... u guyz knw....
Oh,ya~! Thanks so much to the hidden ones...
U mind i mention who u r?
I guess better not...
Others will be shocked if they get to knw~

Congrats!!!

2008-05-25T23:15:00.003+09:00

Congratulation to Prince!!!
I was so happy since last nite.
After chatting with jiun, then i receive this call...
"congratulations, Jarob Prince Wee had been nominated as the finalist for the Most Photogenic contest organised by MCnet. He had won the consulation prize!"
I was quite sad on tat evening tat my bro told me they had informed the winners, but i didn't recieve any call yet.
Until late evening, i recieved the call!
It's a contest that we took part which i had mentioned above and there were 98 dogs involved in this competition.
There will be only 1 winner and 2 consolation. So i shud feel happy with it, eventough we're not the winner.
Today, there's a "pure dog breed exhibition and competition" at Bulatan Park.
The prize giving ceremony for the competition that we took part was held at the same location.
We were thinking to let Prince taking part, bt he is too skinny so we juz forget about it.
hehe...
Anyway, CONGRATS to PRINCE!!!!!
Love u so so much!!
check it out from miricommunity.net

Dating tips..

2008-05-21T21:41:00.002+09:00

I was reading this topic about dating tips from a forum
It's kinda interesting n sounds so true...
check it out...
u'll find out how true is it...
but of course, different ppl, different ways..

Girl says:

First of all, guys never go out without keeping urself smart n steady.
Not to over, of course proper wearing that you are comfort with and also nice, clean and smart look.
You don't have the look handsome to be smart.

Then, when you see girls, any girls that you interested in, don't ever look at her or stared at her too long.

Girl definitely will be scare away for that. If she is you friend's friend then go ahead and greet your friend first and intro yourself to other people on the table include her.
Never make things to obvious in the first point.
After that make a sit if you are convenient and allowed.
If not jus,t greet is enough, if you think she had a good impression on you why not ask her for her number on say out for a drink next time with your and her friend that both of you know.
Communication is always important. That is why guys should know how to talk suitable topic in different kind of situation.

Boy says:

So, 1st and most important thing "THE FEEL", and wth, feel is subjective for everyone. Heh.

But added points that attract girls are
1. Being a mature yet interesting person who likes to talk AND listen.
2. Sensitive and attentive, but not too much. Make her feel special, better still make her wanna be a special person in ur eyes.
3. With tiny little bit of bad boy character, else it's just another nice sweet guy who suits as a platonic good friend/ too nice a person that it become boring.
4. With good sense of humour, minor yellow jokes ok but not too much else it spells 'hamsap'.
5. Dont need to be handsome, but well presentable with effort put into hair, clothes, personal hygiene.
6. With stable career
7. Loves family, babies, pets, her friends

If...

2008-05-05T20:41:00.002+09:00

If i lost my memories...
Wt will u try to make me remember of...?
If i lost my love...
Wt will u do to comfort me...?
If i have no one to rely on...
Wt will u do to make me not to rely so much on others...?
If u're belonged...
Wt will u do to tell me...?
If only u have a last wish to make...
Wt will it be...?
If only there is a person that u miss...
Wt will u do to tell...?
If you're sad...
Wt will you do to make me sense it?
If i were mad...
Wt will you do besides sorry n explain?
If u get to be me...
Wt will u do...?

Bad day

2008-05-04T23:22:00.002+09:00

Everything was as usual,
Just came back from "street walking"
It's a tradition for the GODS to walk along the street
It's part of a celebration i guess
It's also a part of how we thanks the God and also entertaining
Lotsa ppl took part!!
We are so lucky that we're the team no. 2!!!
HOORAY!! i remembered few years back, we were at the back, it took us so long to finish
But this year, it's early
We started at 6.30pm ended at 9.50pm!
Isn't tat early?!
But wt i was so mad is that after we finished
My brothers and i were hungry
We went to "jing wood" to da bao,
I ordered a cordon bleu(chicken chop) from the western stall
I understand tat it's a very busy nite for them
BUT!!!!!! u shud knw tat i place the order first!
My brothers we tired waiting n nagging,
I hav to b quick!
I saw them taking out the fried chicken dy!
The ppl juz put it on the plated ones!
I din even c my da bao there!
Then i go remind the ppl!
He said ok ok.
Then i wait for the 2nd round of chicken to be fried
Who knws, the 2nd round chicken done dy,
It's given to the plated 1s again!
I was so mad!
I asked the ppl, how long do i hav to take?
He said.. oh~ 5 minutes, i already put the chicken into the oil!
WTF! I c u juz take all the fried chicken out! din c u put in also!
Then u still tell me 5 minutes! I really i wanna kill the ppl!
I was so mad! I dun care loh.. so i juz run away
Din bother to inform him that i cancel my order!
Makes me so bek chek!
I walked into my car, telling my broz about the story
Then my elder bro suddenly cam with an idea
"y not u tell the boss say tat later u come back? then u juz run away la.. at least u 'do him 1 business' ma...."
I was thinking if i really wanted to inform, i wun say tat i will b back,
Guess wt i will say?
"I wanna put more order to about 5 portion more, then i'll b back later"
That time then i run!
Who ask ur service so bad!! still wana lie infront of me sum more!
Bt tat time i din bother tat much
So din com out with tat idea
mayb next time!
HMPH!!! so mad!!!!
Then when i reached home,
My air-cond in my room makes me prob!
It comes out hot air!
It's all becoz of 2 days ago the ppl who cam to service!
Be4 they service, the air-cond is still good
After d service, HOT like hell!!!!
I really wanna kill ppl
Already so tired, still wanna make me more bek chek!
So got to sleep with my broz tonite!!
argh!!!

Desperado... Emi Fujita

2008-05-04T17:24:00.000+09:00

desperado, why don't you come to your senses?
You been out ridin' fences for so long now
Oh, you're a hard one
I know that you got your reasons
These things that are pleasin' you
Can hurt you somehow
Don' you draw the queen of diamonds, boy
She'll beat you if she's able
You know the queen of heats is always your best bet
Now it seems to me, some fine things
Have been laid upon your table
But you only want the ones that you can't get
desperado, oh, you ain't gettin' no youger
Your pain and your hunger, they're drivin' you home
And freedom, oh freedom well, that's just some people talkin'
Your prison is walking through this world all alone
Don't your feet get cold in the winter time?
The sky won't snow and the sun won't shine
It's hard to tell the night time from the day
You're loosin' all your highs and lows
Ain't it funny how the feeling goes away?
desperado, why don't you come to your senses?
Come down from your fences, open the gate
It may be rainin', but there's a rainbow above you
You better let somebody love you,
before it's too late

1 May 2008 11pm

2008-05-01T23:51:00.006+09:00

Sorry doesn't seems to be the word i wanted
When it comes out from your mouth, you should be responsible
You should be respecting others
No matter you think how good you are by appearance or character,
I doesn't mean you are the best of all
There are people who are better than you
You have no right to criticize as well
I'm so disappointed to see you stepping on others like that
Even how much I am jealous about others with you
Did i ever step on them?
Don't make me feel like doing it to u as well!
I don't like it...
It's unethical...

WEDDING

2008-04-29T22:59:00.002+09:00

I just went through my college fren's frenster
She's from Hong Kong.
She got married last year.
The shots for her wedding was amazing!!!!!
Guys, if u're free, check this out....
http://www.louispang.com/blog/?p=89

TAGGED~!

2008-04-27T22:21:00.003+09:00

Being tagged by Qing~!!!! The answers below might b different an hour later or mayb a minute...? who knws.....? whose mind is always the clean ones, boys o girls? answer is.... GIRLS.... coz they keep changing their mind more often than boyz does... hehe..... Here we go~~~~~

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
Ekhem..... IMMEDIATELY!!!--> when i was watching on movies or series to see how sweet it is to get married. But of course, when i wake up, i guess 27-30 yrs old? Coz i hope my children will be working before i reach the age of retirement. Hehe...

2. What will you do when you feel really emo?
Calling up someone to talk to, and throw out everything in my mind. or mayb juz listening to songs, making myself more emo, and let the tears fall. but sumtimes, blogging do work as well for me. hehe...

3. Who is your idol?
WUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA... do i hav to answer this? i guess most of my frens knw who it is... of course Lee Hom... I nid not to explain y though.. u guys knw it!

4. Where is the place that you want to go most?
First, i would like to get to a place where i can see sun rise.... (coz most of us gets to see sunsets but not sunrise, so y not?) secondly, i would like to get to Beach... Any beach, as long as i can hav a very nice resort ofcourse, white sand and blue sea.... I juz love 'em....

6. What is the purpose of your life?
I have no idea for this question. n i've been searching it for a long long time......

7. What are you afraid to lose the most right now?
The feeling of being care by family and frens. I would really feel insecure without 'em. Caring is wt ties up all of us together.

8. What cheers you up for the rest of the day?
A call from someone i miss a lot.
Making a great dessert without any failure.( i admit tat my basics r not tat stable yet~~~)

9. If you meet someone you love, would you confess to him/her?
How shud i answer this... I'll try to get close to him, to test whether is he interested in me as well, then i might confess to him in a joking way? haha.... it all depends on wt kinda guy he is.... hehe....

10. List out three good things of the person who tagged you.
FUNNY n CUTE (she can really laugh with the "cold" jokes)
Intelligent (tat's wt i'm so adored!)
She can really have her own judgement sumtimes on certain issue~! I guess she might b in the wrong course... she shud b a lawyer!!!

11. What type of person do you hate the most?
Betrayers, self-centered most of the time

12. What would you do if you won a million dollars?
Renovate my room....
Shopping.....
Charity..... (sounds so fake.... bt honestly, i guess without my bro, i wun understand how much help they need)
Getting my own shop....
Investment....

13. What is your ambition?
Be a great pastry chef!!!!!!! making wonderful wedding cakes for ppl who comes in n searching for their happiness... as i found out, miri still haven gt a nice wedding cake house... hehe...

14. What will you do if you got rejected by someone you like?
Sad.sad.sad. start my search for other guys then.... hunt hunt hunt.....

15. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
Character? my hot-temper.... without it, i guess i will hav a better life....

16. What is your favorite color?
Black and white. U can c my wardrobe with most of my clothes in B&L.... it's juz simple and easy to get along with...

17. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
A good husband.... for the rest of my life i will b with him... so no joke for tat... it's reli reli reli important to get sum1 right in ur life!!!

18. If there’s one thing in your life you want to do but yet unable to, what would it be?
Married to a rich man~~

19. What would you do if tomorrow was the last day of the world?
Get to see all my love ones... n confess... wuahahahahaha.......

20. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
A pair of good-looking eyes
A smile which makes me adores
Intelligence
PATIENCE
The urge for improvement
Mentally and physically mature
Good body...
Afford to pay on my bills
Respect for everyone
Not A-beng~!!!

*** i hope to see answers for ppl whom i tagged too!!! haha....

Hopes for the future!!!

2008-04-23T22:35:00.003+09:00

I want this...
It means everything...
Bringing hope in the future...
Bringing your happiness in it...
All i want is this...

This will be for the guests...
Life is not only with one color...
But with varieties of flavors...
Taste it!!!

so AUNTY!!!!

2008-04-19T00:33:00.003+09:00

Lately so tiring, mum went to Korea for the whole week. Then i have to become an AUNTY! Now i realize how tiring it is... have 2 wake up 6 sumthin in the morning, bring my aunt to the market for some groceries. Have to get home on time, to wake up my ben ben. Hav to prepare his breakfast for him, send him to school, pick him up, bring my aunt to lutong for some fish. ARGH!!!!! hav to take care of my prince... my god!! n i hav to wake up early in the morning tomolo~ bt i'm still here!! i nid 8 hours sleep please!!!!B-U-T! !! mum is going to b back tomolo nite~!!! HOORAY~!!!! wuahahahahaahhaa.... no more aunty life..... bt then, i realize tat miri's market gt upgrade oh! they sell those basils, rosemary, chervils n etc... FRESH!!! n also those salad veggies i mean besides iceberg, those with purple colors, those curly greens, i still haven discover the names yet... bt i'm looking for romaine lettuce!! it's relly relly nice!!! n of course the feel of the market is so refreshing for me, eventhough i hate it when it comes to my alarm when i'm still half way in my dreams, it is really worth to walk around the market to discover all the fresh veggies, fish, meats... i could feel how delicious the foods would be if it is prepared juz at tat moment! n i relly relly like to see the greens in the market... u can c people walking around, searching for their nids to satisfy their family... it hav been a long time i did not get my foot on to the market ever since i was in primary school? wuahahahaaha..... oh ya~! can't forget the kuih-muih~ there's this stall, the uncle is really really friendly n he is close to my mum! he hav this sense of humour which really tickles my heart n gigles when he talks to me. He's really a friendly uncle which i would not wanna get to other stalls bt only his!!! he is rely rely cute!!!!! i guess, i'll try to get there more often... it's a place where i can feel fresh air n fresh foods r coming to me!!!!! muah~!!!

14 April 2008 9.40pm

2008-04-14T22:39:00.002+09:00

So sick today
Flu n cough
Throat feels quite dry these few days
I guess i'm too exhausted
Not enuf sleep since few days back
I miss my time in kl
I haven finish with my shopping
I haven get enuf time with u yet
But sumhow things hav to end
Hoping tat evrythin will b fine there
N thanks for still being so caring
I'm touched...

30 March 08 8.15pm

2008-03-30T21:09:00.002+09:00

That's not wt i expect from u,
I wanted a reply to get my answers,
But wt u gave me, reli disappoints me,
I hope it's not like wt i thought,
Seriously, I do feel sad in my heart,
But it tells me tat it's a truth u're doing very fine there,
N i'm juz too over for it,
I'm so lost for this moment,
Hoping tat u can understand wt am i feeling rite nw...
I reli feel like crying...
... ...

29 March 08 11。50pm

2008-03-30T00:07:00.006+09:00

我很想念你。。。
想念等待你个感觉，
想念躺在你的胸膛，闻到你轻轻的香味，让我慢慢地进入梦里，
我真得很想念你的味道。。
在我入睡后，你就会慢慢的松开你的手，
静悄悄的离开，但你没发现，其实，我知道你离开了。。。
有时候，我最不喜欢的就是我半夜醒来，忘了你已经离开，
反回头时，才发现你不在，我又抱着心里有点酸酸的感觉在入睡，
可怜的你，每天都要3 或4 点才回家，隔天又要去体系。。。辛苦你了。。。

偶尔，睡觉的时候，电话响了，我以为你会去接，
没想到，那个时候，你已经不在了，
我也太习惯，有你的存在。。

我好想念早上在赖床的时候就可以听到你的铃声，
早上一醒来，就可以听到你的声音，
而且，那个时候，你也已经在我的门口带着早餐给我，
那时候，我真得觉得很幸福。。。

我更怀念的就是你会无时无刻的在我不开心的时候出现，
带我出去也好，陪我也好，
带走了我的烦恼。。。

最感动的，是半夜到了沙滩，两人躺着，看着天上的星星，
那个夜晚，对我来说，除了我们第一个约会和你追求我的那一夜，这一天可说是最美丽的夜晚。。。
更感动的是你可以把车尽量开得很顺，让我可以睡得安稳到家，
但我可真得很担心你还有精神回家吗？你却还很坚持的要回去。

我很想念在我们体系的时候，我最期待的就是接到你的电话，
你就会出现在门口等着接我回家，
我会很兴奋的跑去，
过后才发现到，原来你一直都骗我说你很顺路，所以经常来带我，
没想到，你是特地来的哦。。。
听了，我觉得好开心哦~！！：）

可是，这些甜美的时段只有那么短短的几个月，
后来的我们，我觉得是我搬入你家而开始的，
如果当初我坚持不去，也许，我们还有机会挽回，
但有的事情已经发生了，我们也不可能再回头。。。
但，我不否认，在这一刻的我，真得很想念你刚开始对我的好，
那些回忆还很新鲜的停留在我的回忆里，
它会是一个很好回顾的一段，也会是我很动心的一部分，
我也会为你加油。。。
大家一起往前走。。。

29 March 08 10.30pm

2008-03-29T23:21:00.003+09:00

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛　连沉默也痛
遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛

我把你的短讯都删了
感觉要好了
陌生人一个小动作
却让我又想你很久

我的心声。。。你。。。听见了吗？

26 March 08 11.45pm

2008-03-27T00:38:00.009+09:00

Wt i did today...

First of all, introduce u my 3rd brother...
Most of the ppl calls him "Laywer WEE~~~"
The 3rd in between d siblings....
The Most talkative award can b dedicated to him
And as well the most Active 1s of the Wee's family....
Edited his pic today... i'm juz too free....

Next, call him "Larry" the lorry...
We're all so curious where did this name came from..
The 1 beside, it's his gf.. Elaine...
OH! He's the second brother of mine...
Can juz dedicate him an award of.....
"Dark" faces of the Wee's..
wuahahahahahaha

THE POLITE SOCIETY?!
This one dun nid introduce la...
s2pid ing acting cute..
not tired mer?!

Live, Love, Laugh...

This 1 feel kinda wierd..
But duno where to change... still searching...

Enjoying my song....

~END OF PRODUCTION~

25 March

2008-03-25T13:03:00.002+09:00

Does it prove anything?
I'm so tired to keep facing with all these
I just can't talk to you
Everything have to get into so worse?
I just can't think of any reason why should i be facing it
Go do what ever you wanted to
I have no more patience
Seems like you're so eager to end it
Then let's end it so so so soon!!!
Don't talk to me
Don't look for me
Don't listen to me
Don't back-up for me
I don't need all these!
For what?!
Any point?!
Being so foolish~!

3月25号 12.30am

2008-03-25T00:51:00.005+09:00

为了别人而大声地对她，你不觉得你很错吗？
有哪一女人会原意你们这样对待得呢？
女人可以忍受，那是因为她真得很爱你。

当女人生气的时候，你会第一时间发现吗？
当你发现时，也许太迟了
“对不起”是我们常常听到的
可是，你们不知道什么时候才是最适当要说的时候
那三个字真得那么难说吗？
当我们可接受时，一切都太晚了

吵过了，我们都分开的转头了
你连回头来拉着我的意思都没有
难道你不怕在哪一个回头后，我们都彼此的失去对方吗？
你会担心我吗？你会回来找我吗？
女人的心里，总是等待，那你们呢？
为什么每一次都要闹得那么糟才懂得珍惜
那，你又问过自己你能够在挽回多少次？
不要等到我们说“算了”的那一天，你们才懂得醒
那时候，除了“结束”我也无话可说了。

不需要太多，那么一点就够了
女人的心就是那么脆弱
一碰就会隋
伤口总是在，但你们就觉得女人很小气
你们根本都没有要把伤口医好
我们根本都无法复原
所以，问题总是存在

我们都尽力了，你们却惯了
我们感觉不到你们的关怀，你们却一直要求我们的关怀
这可证明“爱情是自私的”
我们也淡了，一切也结束了
我也累了，你也伤了
但我相信，时间可以淡忘一切
让我们都能够走向幸福的道路。。。

白色情人节

2008-03-14T21:13:00.007+09:00

今天是白色情人节。我相信，有的人会很好奇到底这白色情人节是如何来的呢？我知道的白色情人节是从日本来的。在2月14号当天，女方就会先送个小礼物给他，当作是个小意思让男方知道女方的爱意。然后，男方就会有一个月的时间，到了3月14号时，如果男方对那女方有意思，男方就会回礼，让女方知道她也被男方看上了。这就是白色情人节。

如果是几个月前，也许我会很期待这一天。我很怀念一年前的这一天。忽然回想起，脸上就不知不觉得露出笑容，心里会感觉到一丝丝甜甜的感觉。这种感觉是我好久都没感受到的了。那个梦可真得很珍贵。我很怕，在我未来的那一个，我会要求很多。我真的会吗？好累哦。。。

6.00pm 13 March,2008

2008-03-13T18:06:00.007+09:00

好无聊的一天哦。。。我回来的每一天好像每天都是一样的。从莺回去的那天，我的每一天好像都是这样过。突然，我想起她回去的那天，我们每一个朋友都好不舍得哦。看见他们哭，我的心也觉得很酸。我感觉到他们有几个都很好奇我为什么没哭，其实，我很想告诉她们我很想哭，可是哭可以解决办法吗？人生有了遇见的一天，就会有离别的那天。那天，我爸要我去找欧洲的学校，我就知道他会要把我送去那里。我的脑海里突然问起了自己：“我什么时候再可以看见你呢？”。我也问过你，“是否你还会回来吗？” 。你昨晚也给了我答案：“我不知道。。。”。但你也开了个玩笑说你想去欧洲找我。在那一刻，我听了也很开心。可是，我们大家都知道是不可能的事情。你现在都说你工作很辛苦，赚来的钱也不容易吧。把那些钱拿去玩，不如拿来帮你家人好了。我们可以说是每个晚上都会聊天吧，但是，不知道为什么不到两三天就吵。这好像是我们沟通方式的一部分啊。前两晚，我惹你生气，对不起。我不是故意要领到你很担心我。我承认我还是很想念他，我很好奇他过的怎么样。我也很想念我们当初的甜蜜开始。我想，你们也在怀疑我会不会再跟回他在一起，现在的我可以说不会，我还是无法接受我们过后相处的方式。我很开心听见他说他真得很后悔没有好好地珍惜我，他也觉得我们刚开始的时候他是有多么的在乎我。如果我当初坚持不去他家住，也许我们的关系不会闹到像选在这样吧。我现在会觉得，情人不需要每天见面也许是个好事。偶尔见面，才会有想念。现在的我们变了朋友，我觉得这样也是个好事。我不后悔我们在一起过，因为我们大家都学会了了解对方和自己。也许，我们俩做了个错误吧。没有很了解对方就在一起了。现在的我们可以说是性格不和吧。我真得很感激你给了我一个真的很甜美的开始。对我来说，你所做的一切，也许是很多人都会想到或说到的，可是却没做到。我是真得很想念你的味道。我会把它藏在我内心的一个角落，让它成为一个值得回忆的过去。祝福你能够遇见一个更适合你的对象吧。加油！

倒带－蔡依林

2008-03-05T21:43:00.003+09:00

我受够了等待你所谓的安排　
说的未来到底多久才来
总是要来不及才知道我可爱　
我想依赖而你却都不在
应该开心的地带　你给的全是空白　
一个人假日发呆找不到人陪我看海　
我在幸福的门外　却一直都进不来　
你累积给的伤害　我是真的很难释怀　终于看开爱回不来而你总是太晚明白　　
最后才把话说开　哭着求我留下来
终于看开爱回不来　我们面前太多阻碍　
你的手却放不开　宁愿没出息求我别离开　你总是要我乖慢慢计划将来　　
我的眼泪却一直掉下来　
过去怎么交代你该给的信赖　
被你亲手缓缓推入悬崖　
从我脸上的苍白　看到记忆慢下来　
过去甜蜜在倒带只是感觉已经不在　
而我对你的期待被你一次次摔坏　
已经碎成太多块　要怎么拼凑跟重来

我除了失望也没有别句可以形容你。。。　

New...

2008-03-03T00:20:00.003+09:00

My new hat... nice?

I went out 2day with Jiun
Went shopping as i knw most of my frens will b bz dating
So luckily still hav her to accompany me
Bought 2 hat today but i dun reli knw how to put on d other 1s
N i like this hat more... hehe...
I wanted to buy kinda lot of stuff today
But hav to make enuf budget 1st
Wt is more sad... i've gt no income now
I reli wanna shop shop shop!!!
I wan sunglasses, boots, pants n so much more...
Can sum1 rescue me from spending now?
I guess no... hehe...

Dream...

2008-03-02T15:39:00.002+09:00

Evrything happend so sudden in d way tat i can't get to digest
I do realize tat we're so different in our thoughts
Sumtimes things r not like wt u thought i am now
I'm looking into wt i'm facing now n i know which n wat way to go
I nid not always rely on ppl
4 u i might not b listening n facing it
D pain n the wound is not fully covered
N it will never will
I'm not hiding o putting it away
I knw wt i am doing n i'm preparing myself for a better life
I knw wt to tell myself to get myself protected
I knw wt am i suppose to do when i'm facing them
It's nt like wt u think
I nid not always listen to u
I've hav my own thoughts
No 1 can says tat any1 of us is right
D trust in us is starting to fade away
Seems like our dreams r different
I guess fren is wt i can use to describe...

Things are different...

2008-03-01T23:12:00.002+09:00

Things are different now...
We've all grown up
Grown up is a very different way in evry individual of us
What comes into our life makes d changes in us today
I guess many of them outside there had experience wt i had
They might b more lucky than me, or unlucky
I'm happy 4 wt had happened
Atleast i've gt a very interesting part which others might not hav experience
O mayb they might have experience sumthin more than me
I gt sum1 always persuades me and making me happy as when i get mad
But things r different now
We're both in the different party n space
I might not knw hw is thing over there
But no matter wt u've promised
Is nt wt i tend to take
Promises are mend to be broke
So dun make any of them
After all i've seen, it'll break 1 day
I can't bear with it
I've drop once so pain
Something tat i hardly built-up myself to accept things new
U wanted me to rely on u at this time
u knw tat i've gt no1 to rely on
But things r different
I can't get to always rely on u
No matter wt u said i'll b suspecting on u
I knw tat i shudn't b like tat
But i found out tat not only u've ever lied to me
Lies r wt hurts ppl deep inside
It ruin the trust which is hardly build
I dun wan myself to get any sympathy
I can do it on my own
I've cried is not bcz i'm sacrificed
I juz can't bear with the pain in me
Wt do u guyz knw in me?
I nid rest...
I nid time on my own...
N i guess... I dun nid u...
U said u're nt afraid to get hurt
I can sense that things will get worse soon
IT hav been a long time u didn't hav to care of others feelings
Not even hav to bother the mad 1s
When u've get used to it,
I knw tat things r different
U told me tat i shud b controlling my emotions,
I'm sure tat things r reli different now,
If u dun feel like doin it
Dun do it
Dun let me find out tat u're not doing it 4 wt it shud b meant
I'll b so sick or realizing the fact and the truth....
I dun nid u...

Moments...

2008-02-28T22:57:00.003+09:00

Missing our journey.....

My new Puppy....

Potato with cheddar cheese in Bechamel sauce
(at last i succeed)

Our last dinner... miss u lots...

Hw shud i describe dis?

R u emotional?

2008-02-23T20:14:00.004+09:00

Cn sum1 plz res.q me~!

I guess i'm gonna drown soon...

Feel so helpless suddenly...

I can find no 1 beside me now...

at 1st i msged jiun to com out with me.

She is gonna hav her dinner till 10pm! okay...

then i looked for W.chen, she is at Tanjung with her family n relatives.

Fine! I get to find Wei bt she's lazy to drive down n we've gt nuthin to do as well + she might b going out with jia them to yam cha which i dun feel like joining with them coz sum of them i dun get to knw.

Wat was more sad that i found was... Chia Yee.

I thought tat she might b there, YES,

she picked up her phone, guess wt she said?.....

"Oh.... I'm at Kuching right now... I'll b back next week.." OMG! I was going to get insane when i heard that!

Then i msged Ing.... n guess wt? No reply from her...

huh!!!!!!!!!!!! i feel like killing myself!!!!!

helpless n hopeless at this moment...

Is evrything fine?

2008-02-22T21:16:00.002+09:00

It hv been a long time i didn't get to write any blog
I can't get use to writing at this time
And i'm really blur in using all these functions which is so new for me
I juz hope that chen is here now to rescue me

I'm so lost all these while
I'm back here for like a month to 2
I hv no idea wt i wanted to hv now
Things had gone worst in between us day by day
D only solution tat i choose to take is to run away
I knw tat i sounds irresponsible in this way
But i hope u will understand me one day
I knw it's now easy for us to come till today
But i can only say "sorry" and hope evrything is okay
I knw tat u nid me by ur side like for everyday
N so do i be4 this which kills me day by day

We both know tat things wun run smooth from now
I'm getting myself to prepare for a better future
I hope tat u can cope with everything u're facing now
And i know tat making u to hate me is a better way for u to forget me
I can c the pain in u
And so do i feel the same
In ur mind, i'm juz a cold-blood human
Which makes u a fool
But i will nvr regret teling u tat wt u've given to me is a precious thing to learn
I've learnt so much from u
Which is trying to take my temper more lower than be4
We've both had made a lot of mistakes
I hope tat u can meet a better 1s in the future n treasure it

As 4 u reading
U will know who u r when u read this
I'm glad tat we've had so much great time together
I know things wun last long
But i hope tat things will get fine there either
I didn't mean to get any1 of u hurt
And i know tat it's my mistake all these while
I shudn't take things for granted
And from u,
U've given me faith and trust that i've nvr get it be4 from others
I hope to treasure u more
But i know letting go is also the best way which makes evry1 feels fair
I'm not here to make u feel sympathy on wt i've done
But i juz wanna apologize and being very thankful for ur advises
It really helps me stand up and facing evrything tat i nid to face
I know tat seperating is wt we hav to learn from life
And this is wt i get frm now
Tears wun get things settled

I've learned so much from the both of u
I hope tat i'm prepared to face every obstacles in life
N i know tat i hav frens beside me which really supports me
Thanx, Chen for making me such wonderful blog.
I really love it.
Thank you.

2008-02-20T23:50:00.001+09:00

Jiun Nyce N' Me

2008-02-19T01:45:00.001+09:00

the very first post..